Thursday, March 26, 2009

Egoistic Padagogy - The Boss Factor


I wonder why people hold false personal or derived delusional beliefs and hold it with so much conviction in spite of reason or evidence to the contrary. This to me appears to be one stupid game. Why don't people realize that this is not a contest in who gets to have the last word and this wasted energy does not help anyone? I really don't want to try and fly across the Indian Ocean with a tiny little inflatable balloon holding myself up. The focus needs to be redirected towards the sufferer- Themselves.

I've waited patiently for people to change. Now I realize that that I'm going to just travel this road alone just like I've done this many years. I know that I'll succeed. It might be quite very isolated ahead than I expect but I guess this is all part of what it takes. I'll deny my isolation, I'll prove everyone wrong. Deny my desolation and prove them wrong. Deny my solitudinarian madness and prove them differently. I'll deny them a voice; I will speak louder and louder and keep shouting so as to keep them all mum.

That is why I've made a “future plan” for my futuristic living world. I must remind you that my living world, actually, is the world that my body exists in. My lawless, timeless, uncontrolled world being the world that dominates the sanenesss in me, and then my safety world where I'll develop and create situations and beliefs in my mind to cope or escape from dominating dictators. I refuse to be dictated that I'll only ever manage my “attitude”, rather than eradicate it completely. I want to keep up the hope and belief, that I've nothing but I've everything to survive without them in this world.

I purport to accomplish this task by realizing that time and egoistic bosses around me are just temporary, just a collection of temporary hook-ups. Just congresses till I get the ejaculation. Nothing else. They are never the actual thing and the one complete true story. No one are. Because they are just their story, each individuals everyday ego, insecurities in their position in the company, a differential custom-made history that they like to flaunt. By the same token, they believe that they are helping and reality doesn’t exist and never has. It is a concept they have created to make themselves superior. Which is another dullard concept and not a fact. The finite moment of life where ego compounds logic, and the whelming and the great euphoric sense of invincibility and immortality which cloud the outside world all but for the briefest of heartbeats and time.

The astute depth to which our own wide eyes can reach are only beaten by the depth of individuality and humbleness the heart can feel but they imagine a camera profoundly, majestically circling them from above enticing and magically encouraging them to continue. The devil bless their beliefs!

32 comments:

Vee said...

There are times when you just shouldn't be taking the shit flying around. May be it is time to stop smelling the air polluted by the falseness and go into hibernation. May be.

Lovely post.

brocasarea said...

yeah i have realized this now after starting my internship...people expect u to be like them..corrupt,selfish and to compromise easily!!

Reema said...

I second Vee's opinion.

Indyeah said...

Its hard ,yes
but its also damn easy when you learn to have selective amnesia:D
I close my eyes and ears on certain things

Indyeah said...

Its hard ,yes
but its also damn easy when you learn to have selective amnesia:D
I close my eyes and ears on certain things

Winnie the poohi said...

One hell of a rant!

Biju Mathews said...

@ Brocasarea: I wonder why!! Untrained managers are everywhere, they just rise up with politics!! Thanks!

Biju Mathews said...

@ Reema: But for how long? It is as good as a politician bending to the rules and keeping his tail tucked in...

Biju Mathews said...

@ Indyeah: Ha Ha, selective amnesia. That was good! Yeah, that helps but the more one has the more you need to pull down into your chair and people under you suffer.

Biju Mathews said...

@ Winnie: Thanks! It was written in the heat of the moment. I don't know how to box but know only how to rant. Ha Ha

vishesh said...

lol,it is so nice to read someone else say the same thing which i am saying...*sigh we are a rare specie:)

Smita said...

AM going through the same phase....and now I have given up expecting from people am raring to go all alone & somehow I feel at peace and happier :-)

Praveen Gopinath said...

I am surprised !! But its true.

You've been changed and diplomacy in you is forced to take the back seat. Good.

This egoistic character was always an issue and whenever we went on fighting mode, u laughed.

What must have happened ?? I am thinking..what made come out and raise the voice now ?? !

Anyway, its may be the right time to look for a greener pasture.

All the best..

Praveen Gopinath said...

I am surprised !! But its true.

You've been changed and diplomacy in you is forced to take the back seat. Good.

This egoistic character was always an issue and whenever we went on fighting mode, u laughed.

What must have happened ?? I am thinking..what made u come out and raise the voice now ?? !

Anyway, its may be the right time to look for a greener pasture.

All the best..

Vyazz said...

Hmmm.....frankly we will begin our medical internship soon, and it wont be long before we are pushed around like dirt by senior residents.
Now you know why some doctors are always in a foul mood.

Biju Mathews said...

@ Vijesh: ...*sigh we are a rare specie:)

Biju Mathews said...

@Smita: Yeah, that's the way to go. We go to work only for money. Life begins outside!!

Biju Mathews said...

@ Vyazz: I propose to be treated by you some day, hope you are not in a foul mood that day. Ha Ha :-)

Deepika M said...

Waiting for people to change will actually result in you getting changed forever whenever it comes to them again!

amit said...

I have created a recycle bin in my brain and whenever I come across such a scenario, I just dump that person/situation in the recycle bin and empty it. :)

Gary Kent said...

Hi BRO,

How are ya doing?

Going through your blogging website I'm quite impressed on your views and thoughts. Its seems you are pouring your heart out on each topic. The choice of images to each topic is superb too. Keep up the good work.

If I need someone also to get into the blogging how would you guide them to it, could you guide me step by step.

How's work going now, some pressures of work is definitely reflecting on certain topics of your blog.( Egoistic Padagogy)

I realise that individual people make their own choices, some people do make their choices based on their circumstance and some are just followers and not leaders.

"I purport to accomplish this task by realizing that time and egoistic bosses around me are just temporary, just a collection of temporary hook-ups"......I dont agree to this part to which you have written. Egoistic bosses are not temproray....its all based on choices. For eg you are in that company because you choosed to because of the freedom you get, along with that you also get the rest of the negative clauses that the part of the package.

It just like buying a shirt for yourself, you want silk shirt but you choose to pay only Rs 20, "If you are determined to get for that price" then you will get one but after a week or two you will also get a chance to see the threads coming off very quickly.....Eventualy its all matter of choice dude.

Anyways you keep blogging and also do let me know how to get into it as well.

Biju Mathews said...

@ Deepika: You commented right. A change in my behavior is inevitable but I'll have to keep trying and not relent to their stupid avocations, right?

Meghna said...

this is quite a place!! Seriously...t.he style, attitude, way of writing is great....a nice read...every post inspires a deep thought!!

Quite a sincere job

Will visit regularly!!

The Illuminator said...

Looks like someone's boss has rubbed him on the wrong side. But it's quite a determined stand you have taken. Will you be up to it?

Biju Mathews said...

@ Mehgna: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. What an inspiration! :-)

Welcome to my blog!

Biju Mathews said...

@Illuminator: Ha Ha. Thanks! I really hope so. Politics is not meant for the fickle and weak minded and I don't propose to be a politician but I would like to rebel till perpetrators change their mindset :-)

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SSQuo said...

Exceptionally written! It takes a rational and balanced person to know when its best to sit in one's own bubble and not be affected, and when to head out and use the sharpest pinhead available and crash another's bubble (Poof!) so that they can see the world without this watery screen! You seem to have figured out a way that works for you.

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